Reentry

Finding myself after a long break:-

With the onset of covid as we all landed to a phase of uncertainty. It was really difficult for all of us to keep our head calm. It was needed in a way to keep it going. I also went through this phase. Everything was getting out of my hand at one point. Reason was negativity was all over. When everything was stagnant at one point of time that was the phase that actually helped me in a way to come back to myself after a long break of almost a decade. Sounds funny. But that’s the truth. I am not sure if you find it relevant but you will comprehend me in a while.

After college till these many years of experience in IT. The most important ingredient was missing in my life was happiness, peace and giving reason to my existence. I achieved many things, I lead a good life but something felt missing. I always had believed that we all are in this world to fulfill our own reason of existence. During this covid times I somehow found and got time to drill into these thoughts in depth. It might sound philosophical but yes it’s the truth and it’s the personal opinion one can have for them. For some it might be just to fulfill their family needs, some might dream to achieve something beyond limit and so on. But everyone has some thing or the other role to play to fulfill their presence. Covid has positive and negative impact in my life. Negative as there were certain situation that I never expected year 2020 to end with my dad’s demise. However positive as due to covid as everyone had to work from home this was the time when I had a chance to spend time with dear ones, my son as I can see him grow infront of me, spend time with him and this is how I could also spend time with my dad in his last days by travelling to hometown during this covid. However, along with the most important thing I came across was finding the meaning of my life. As we were working from home and we did had lot of time to utilize it in progressive manner. Eventually to find out things that would help you to keep your calm.

I enrolled into many workshops and attended courses on soft skills training. In other words, enhanced my knowledge. With all this exposure I realized one significant thing that I wanted in life, I wanted to coach/train people by helping them to improve on their skills required to succeed in real life. We tend to focus only on the academics, but no one cares about other aspects of life improvement. Infact I am stressing upon the mental and emotional well-being. As rightly said emotions give meaning to our life. I feel this is the most important thing that we need to equally focus on along with academics. As lacking on this can actually be hindrance to your success. Not only that during this covid time there were situation people unable to handle their emotions leading to extreme circumstances that was irreversible by any means.

Till date I realized if I would have really looked after on my emotional health been able to manage it. I could have climbed the success ladder more quickly. These years it was not me. I am not the person that I am now. Now I feel infact that it been years that I lost connection with myself. Never looked upon on to find the lost me. Finally, I got myself back. But its never too late. Now when I found myself. I realized that this absence of me actually helped to find me.

How it happened so that was as I believe in Grow through what you go through. This was the life changer. With all my experiences I tried to drill in each and every event to find out what wet wrong and how things can be better. The only error that I found was that focusing on the negative situations in life. Whenever life tossed me upside down instead of overcoming out of these negative patterns. I used to focus more on the negativity that eventually became a cycle of repetition. Rather the best option should have been to move my focus on the path of positivity and gratitude which I am following now. Very well said by Robin Sharma: Everything is created twice once in the mind then in the reality. So, if we constantly have those negative thoughts what can be the outcome. It will tend to give negative results. Isn’t it.

I would say this reinvention is not that easy as to incorporate a habit it takes time and also it all about mind game. Do you know our brain transmits 11 million pieces of information every second. So don’t you think it would be tough to calm your brain. Here the meditation and Breath in Breath out technique plays a crucial work and it did work for me. Also don’t force your mind to do something. It is just you have to calm it and everything will automatically fall in place. Since all this realization and exploration I created a routine to follow that I incorporated in my life consciously. This made it easy for the transformation to happen gradually. Still progressing. As growth is an ongoing process. We grow in every step of life. Just the level changes.

Now after all this evolution and reinvention I recognized that the learnings I got from my experiences in life. Since I realized that from the bottom of my heart, I know who I am, and I am perfectly sure what I want. Then why to wait for someone else opinion. With this state of mind when I was recovering and charging myself. I started getting great opportunities that I am enjoying, not only that I love writing. Since then when I started on sharing my thoughts through blogging or writeups. Additionally, I am working on preparing my content. In other words when I started to do things that gave happiness and peace to my soul I felt as If I am living a life now that I wanted. Its little hectic and though it’s a drastic shift. My inner voice constantly encouraging by saying me Keep it up as you are on the right path. That’s what my mission is to have a depression free world which is absolutely possible. It doesn’t mean that you will not have upside down in life, you will not have failure or breakdown in life. But the most important thing is to come out of it like an achiever. So no external factor can disturb your peace of mind.

Self-Awareness is the true sense of evolution.